Jesus mate, don’t hit so close to home.
Is there a name for this condition? I think I have some research to do.
It’s the literal definition of clinical depression.
Oh shit.
I worked a job where I had to tell people they’d lost all their data on a near-daily basis. I gradually became very clinical about it, completely without empathy. Not rude, just: “this is what happened and here’s what we can do to fix it.”
It took witnessing a surprising act of genuine compassion from a coworker to spark it in me again. I later thanked him and told me he’d saved me; I don’t think he fully understood the magnitude of the change he inspired.
Trauma, it took years of therapy and years of recovery to get that back
Oh shit is that what’s happened to me?
How can I undo it?
Hobbies and community.
Find something that you want to get better at and do it. A lot. Seeing yourself progress is insurmountable when it comes to getting out of the rut.
As far as community, find a local group or meet up that does something you’re into and join it. Just by interacting with others, it can get you out of your own head.
Therapy helps
But I need money for food, therapy takes that away and then I won’t even have food
