I’m cluster b (aspd but possible npd), and I’ve been tested without much solid conclusion for possible cluster a habits/behaviors. I’d say since a lot of social situations end up feeling like I’m speaking another language, it’s hard to know much about my workings. Kind of like making me learn ‘socially typical’ language but its missing words so I still can’t express whats going on in my brain so others can help with it. I tend to just come off “charismatic” only to have not a whole lot of interest deep down for much, especially most other people. It’s like loving all of your fans on a stage and them barely being able to sign an autograph post performance. No clue. It is… wild.

I don’t know these and still questioning being a MAP but whatever is most applicable to (in terms of average/normal development) around 15/16? I think it’s because I just really like the fairy grunge girlies its not my fault okay…

I love the more fascinating stuff. You know those “watch it for the plot” jokes? That’s always been me. There’s zero attraction to the plain, simple, and/or bland.

For me, my biastophilia is pretty directly related to my traumaphilia, which as I’m coming to understand is the only reason I have that attraction as an asexual. I’ve loved cases like BTK, but I am particularly fond of the Junko Furuta case due to how drawn out, intense, and interesting it is. I also find interest in kidnapping, which I think again all ties together. A complete stranger is mild to me, but someone who’s barely an acquaintance forcing onto someone? I like quite a lot… I’m not fond of cases that are one and done straight to jail or death, again all tied together because of the traumaphilia. I relate to you quite a bit.

Okay again, not a MAP (I don’t think, unsure), but all the ‘younger’ people I’ve been with? My favorite part was always how they made me feel older, just simply. Helped with age dysphoria. So I guess, someone affirming and playful. Always like feminine folks best! ~ Pretty Girls ~

This is a really cool idea. I’d be interested in helping with a news section, since I really love writing and all. (I think it rubbed off, one of my parents jobs is a social media manager for politicians…) I can help with other things but this is really interesting, I just want to help in general. <3

Smashing is not enough, I am pounding like feral animal and growling and foaming at the mouth.

I think a code word/phrase or something should come with it. For instance, you see someone with the code symbol, but to be sure this isn’t a coincidence, you could say “I have a friend with that (pin/scarf/etc).” Or something… My idea, since I want it to be easy for anyone to acquire/make; (A pink scrap fabric or scarf with a purposeful black blotch on a corner (would have to have the blotch visible) (a black and pink pin, or similar, with an elephant, or a symbol I might design specifically for this). Other codes, possibly… (“Did you make that yourself?” answering yes actually means the person meant to have the item out/on them, answering no means they meant to put the item away or forgot they had it out, and it should be ignored. Saying a friend made it is code for the person to respond with a joke about the friend, because the person is trying to make sure you are aware of and purposefully using the code) (“It matches your outfit/vibe/look/makeup” is code for “Oh hey, I know the code! I won’t be doing anything to you, but I did notice.”)

Do you feel safe in ‘CSA Survivor’ specific spaces? If not, do you think it’s because of inherent problems with the function of these spaces/groups, or something personal to you? Do you relate to others posts or talking about CSA, or do you feel like an outlier at times/unable to relate or connect? (Ignore if N/A)

I think Ageism is the most logical to be general, but also… “Youthists” referring to those who uphold Adult Supremacy, and Maturists or something, for the discrimination based on ‘maturity’ constructs (that are loads of bull-shart).

I want to make a B(D/S)M community, but I feel like it would be understood as NSFW despite me wanting to keep it educational and helpful, aka; safety with rope/breathplay, ‘what is dollification,’ etc etc. So I’ve put it to the side. Although, it belongs here more than other places, so many online BDSM spaces are extremely exclusionary and it’s gross.

I’m using the vaporwave one (I think!)

Dubcon is very valid of you (and yes it fits well under biasto, i think a specific dubcon label would almost be under the umbrella more so). This was cool to read, thank you.

Personally the only thing that keeps me from staring at people is my fear of nipples… I’m not even attracted to naked people but my brain is like “LOOK. YOU GOTTA LOOK.”

I don’t even know if I’d label myself a MAP, since it’s sort of like, an exception almost. Not something I ever think about for the most part, but my one “partner” (not sure what else to call her) is intra age 14 (We are similar in terms of chrono). It doesn’t effect my attraction to her much, but considering I do see her as such, I suppose I could be a MAP. It’s not something I think about too much, but, it’s there in a way.

I love this story. Thank you for sharing. I don’t know if this means anything, but around 13/14, I was pretty active in MAP circles, and while I felt safe and respected, adults in my real circle were entirely heartless in their response. I was a stupid child to them after it and they forced me into isolation from practically everyone! When I read peoples stories about realizing their love wasn’t wrong, I just wish people understood that, so I wouldn’t have ended up alone. You’re so very valid, and I know your openness is really important and valuable. You’re loved.

they hate to see a fashionista winning

You can accept it and still struggle. Acceptance is a loopy roller coaster process just like any self-improvement or healing process. You’re incredibly valid and I hope time helps you grow to accept yourself as such. (Much love <3)

Autistichearted sounds… Really smart actually. Big brain move, thank you. I’ll be coining it on my coining sideblog.