I would only cut my life into pieces as a last resort

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Chapter 1, Chapter 2, Chapter 3, Chapter 4, Chapter 5, Chapter 6, Chapter 7, Chapter 8, Chapter 9, Chapter 10, and Chapter 11.

1. School
2. Job
3. Married
4. Kids
5. Retrenched
6. Cancer
7. Remission
8. What now?

0. Foreward
1. Back in the day
2. I fell in love with a member of the stupid slut club
3. That went as well as one would guess
4. Epilogue

In the closet and out of the closet

1. When I was happy
2. Now

1. Horrible childhood to teen which ends with mother’s suicide, homelessness, graduated high school.
2. Post school, retail management, dating, marriage. Fandom
3. Marriage, fatherhood, unemployment, writing, BBS, IT training, re employment in retail management
4. Start of IT career, fandom event management
5. Then 9/11 happened, life went to shit, more fandom management, first novel published
6. Running an event corporation, second novel published
7. Wife’s death, a desert wasteland of malaise, Trump elected lost just b because of him, retirement from running event corporation
8. Dating again, start working from home, remarriage, health problems fixing up.

So… Here we are.

1. Cold old house with memories about white cats, whipping sticks and aluminium candy wrappers
2. Burning the old house
3. Cat is my only friend but it has fleas and I slept on the livingroom floor because mice were making noise inside the roof and I was scared
4. Alone but books, except that one time when I was napping and uninvited people came over
5. When the periods came I was never ready and at that moment my childhood ended
6. Moving away and back again and again, why won’t you just separate?
7. I got a pair of fancy new shoes but others bullied me and I never wore them again
8. Finally that shitshow ended and I’m on my own
9. Years of angry and alternative truths
10. Years of realization and actual truths
11. What the hell am I supposed to do now?
12. Darkness has settled but I can’t and the neighbours are banging doors and it sounds like shooting
13. Finally something good
14. And then people and animals die
15. What the hell am I supposed to do now? Pt. 2

1. Religious bullshit
2. Fucking religious bullshitter
3. Turns out she fucked a friend… or 3
4. DCSS is a criminal organization that kills people for a commission
5. Bicycles and racing to make the best of it
6. Lost 160 lbs
7. 7th car hit killed me
8. Half dead sucks worse than all dead
9. Fuck!

I would probably split it pretty broadly. Pre parents divorce was a great time. Once my parents divorced and changing schools at the worst time really aet me behind socially and I never really found who to be and was generally an unhappy person. Once I went to community college, I learned what I loved and found my intrinsic motivation from within. Post college has been nothing but a success as I continue to be myself, found an awesome wife, bought a house, started a family, and continue an upward trajectory.

Chapter 1: early childhood pre parents divorce (0-9) Chapter 2: childhood to teenage years (10-18) Chapter 3: college, finding myself, and becoming an individual (18-22) Chapter 4: job success, family success, and true happiness (23-32) Chapter 5: starting a family (33+)

[The Lost Years 1~5][The Hard Times 5~23][The Dark Night of the Soul 23~30][The Golden Goddess 30~present]

I finally made it to the good part! Damn, it’s kinda sad when you lay it all out like that. But I’m thriving now!

I’ve heard an interesting idea that life is broken into 12 year agreements segments. It’s not a bad idea.

I read before that you live your life through your 20s and 30s like you usually do and then you’ll get a life changing diagnosis.

So with that in mind I’d say pre diagnosis and post.

1. so early can’t tell difference between memory and realistic dream
2. no
3. learned to use computer
4. no x2
5. graduation day best day
6. billionaires are good people
7. joined social media
8. billionaires aren’t good people ._.
9. i live on the internet