yeah i totally get this, its something that i deal with quite often, although its not as bad i guess, it can be worse in other ways though. i often get envy from watching other girls, and i get all these feelings of “oh i want to be them”, “i wish i were more like them”, or whatever. sometimes i need to take a break from whatever im watching because i get too distracted by my thoughts and i realize that im not actually watching whatever it is. normally if i change my mindset i can avoid such thoughts, but sometimes i just cant and i just need to avoid things that make me feel bad all together.

however sometimes i feel the opposite, i feel rather inspired to be more like them, and i feel like, wow, if they can do that then so can i, whats stopping me? i rarely do much about it though, i really need to take more action instead of wallowing in my thoughts.

one example of how it can get pretty bad is that i sometimes find myself feeling that way about people in my life, and ill push myself away from them because i just cant handle the thoughts that i have sometimes, i dont really have these thoughts around cis men, in fact i often have the opposite feeling, i feel more fem and such around them, its weird, i dont exactly feel like i fit in in either group, im just in a limbo. i dont always feel this way of course, and having friends that i can relate to and have similar experiences has really helped me overall.

I’m a few steps ahead of you, but dam it would be nice if i could only buy a month supply

maybe I’ll be less scared if you hold my hand :3

but im scared

also this

Psycho Devils by Jasmine Mas

and yet I get my hopes up every time

you dont know the half of it :/

and im over here asking for some struggle snuggles

im enjoying this one but the translation is a bit rough in certain parts

see my latest post

oh I keep on top of that

:3

your not disgusting your rather kind, i doubt you would want to take on a whole person anyways, im sure i could find my way over there if i really wanted to, theres plenty of cargo ships i can hop, just gotta pack enough food! but yeah im totally serious i wanna leave this country, but i doubt anybody wants me so its fine.

do you think I personally have done this?

you think I won’t leave this shitty country to make pancakes with cute girls your sorely mistaken

anybody outside the us want to adopt a cute trans girl? I’m partially housetrained already! and I only bite occasionally.

I bet you would look fucking adorable in a conductor hat

i sunburn to easily