Torn Apart By Dogs

A homeless transsexual escort trying to create meaning in the cosmos.

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Cake day: January 20th, 2025

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  • its called anhedonia and its a symptom of many psychiatric issues. i had it for like 40 years and it got worse as my cptsd bloomed and i acquired depression that was treatment-resistant. it was severe. i had many meds and ect and ketamine. ketamine fuckin works but it takes a toll on my dissociative disorder and tbh my sense of what is real and it likely triggered the clinical paranoia. however, i now take atomoxetine and it fixes the anhedonia really well in comparison to before. now i get up and simple shit makes me feel good. not great, not ecstatic, just good. it turns out i can like everyday stuff. also, being trans with the wrong endogenous hormones also made it worse. so, to sum up, estradiol, lamictal, and atomoxetine are a magic combo for me. now its just life stress that makes me want to turn myself off. at least every single thing in my life is no longer a sisyphean grind like a real life mmo that never gives you coin or an epic.














  • im still satisfied with starting at 49 even with all my struggles. i needed to and so i did. i can only advise what i know. transitioning has been worthwhile and im toughening up now that im standing alone. the harder the fight the more im sure i am on my own side now and taking care of me. im a garbage transsexual and on that point i could not be happier all things considered. fanning the flame of my own being has been amazing. accept what feels right in the face of your fear and do that thing. be brave. <3