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Cake day: June 6th, 2023

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  • Better than last time I commented on this thread! My gastritis has taken a turn for the better which has had a huge positive effect on my mood. I got some extra hours in work too, after working part time for ages due to being sick. I’m hoping to pick up some private students for online lessons after the summer to earn some more money so I can move out of my house which has been the plan since 2020 but it’s been delayed at every turn 😭 2025 is going to be my year… Possibly







  • Just over 5 months sober. I struggled a little this weekend. I was meant to meet my partners’ friends for drinks (I’ve been usually OK in social settings, happy to just get a non alcoholic beer and chill) however this weekend I just couldn’t face talking to new people AT ALL. I got incredibly anxious at the thought of the whole situation and started crying and genuinely couldn’t stop. I even put on my going out clothes and stepped outside my front door but I still couldn’t stop and I had to go back inside.

    And it made me reflect on how often I used to be able to rely on alcohol as a crutch for these kinds of situations. Obviously that set off some catastrophic thinking about never being able to interact with new people in a social situation ever again.

    Having slept on it (I stayed in and watched movies instead) I have to cut myself some slack. I was quite sick all last week and had very little energy, so I didn’t go to the gym at all which usually helps my moods. I also didn’t do anything social even with people I know and felt really lonely. And last of all I also took some pretty strong medication to help with another infection I had and I wonder if everything altogether made me feel like shit.

    So I have that to reflect on today. I texted a friend of mine this morning about one of the films I watched last night and we had a really good conversation about it which was really nice. And I didn’t have to leave my house to have it :))