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nono, it’s okay. my main goal was to connect them with irl comrades or a network so that they didnt feel so alone going through this. ik from experience that having someone nearby that can assist is a huge relief. it’s not an obligation or pressure, they’re a comrade and it’s the human thing to do. i just wish i had more energy to extend and take it from there. but when these things happen it’s important to get ppl to help in group. basically, be a community.

YES THANK YOU, it was extremely helpful tho. you reminded me of alot of things. ik it’s the inability to feel like you have control in your own life, so I’m giving them space for now even though it’s not looking up. i just hope they continue to reach out.

sorry for the short reply but yeah, i’ve been really trying to get them to keep talking to me. i used to be good at talking to people when in crisis but i’m in crisis myself and just a mess in general and idk what else to do or what to say

I’m making this post for them because they have completely given up and dont want any sort of help and idk what to do. I dont think they have an account on here. They’re not letting me help them.

they are very serious. it’s a very dangerous situation

tw for suicide/attempts mentions

yes, it’s suicidal ideation. there’s also a version that is passive where it’s generally heavy thoughts of dying without making plans or attempts for it.

not having the will to live can mean alot of things, like if you’re too fatigued to do anything, whereas ideation can also present itself in people that dont have fatigue. how do you feel in regards to this?

tmi: for me the thoughts are always there even while heavily medicated but when im fatigued i dont attempt bc i am too tired for anything. the dangerous part is when someone’s mood and energy starts to spike. on the outside ppl think they are better but si can still be present. thats when ppl have the energy to go through with the attempts.

i know that feeling, im sorry part of your brain is trying to off you mine does the same. it’s good that the suicidal ideations are gone, should be a huge relief.

ok, that’s a positive sign! angry how? irritable? overstimulated?

Has it made you feel anything weird? It might be too soon but you never know!

yes, this happens everywhere! it became even more prominent when the troll farms began to flood popular social media sites (facebook, ig, yt, tiktok, etc). prime examples are cerimedo w bolsonaro’s election, and later on cerimedo w milei.

the mythical leftist spaces move from site to site when there’s censorship or shadowbans. or they create their own subreddits like a few that I know. but yeah, i also found lemmygrad this year and am glad it exists. saludos, compa.

oh ok, I misread!!

Keep us updated. Ive never taken lurasidone but fingers crossed that it works for you!!

Was vraylar doing anything for you?

You know your symptoms more than anyone else, so try to keep track of the positives but please dont ignore the negatives. As soon as something starts to feel “wrong” or you feel any physical sideeffects talk to your psych. There was one atypical antipsych that did wonders for me but had my ankles swelling up to the point where I could no longer walk. So just a heads up.

I know that some antipsychs that specifically target depression can cause hypomania or mania, so write down any unusual symptoms so you can keep your psych updated on anything. But yeah, be patient, some meds start working 2-3 weeks later, some sooner. It does depend on the body.

Also, meds are mostly on an individual basis. What works for someone else might not work for you and vice versa. I have a friend that was on sertraline and it made him feel worse, but for me sertraline works wonders.

Yay!

Free Palestine, comrade.

Alot of people still do not know what to do with survivors of csa/sa/dv. Be it ignorance, I mean, that’s the easiest one to understand. It is patriarchal in nature and most days it is so tempting to give up. But spite sort of keeps me going, for all the people that decide to give the benefit of the doubt to abusers instead of protecting survivors, especially at that age. It’s disgusting. I’m glad you spoke up, I swear it rots your blood to keep abuse hidden. And we’ve come to a point where so many people are coming forward that it’s no longer easy to brush it all under the rug. And it’s because one person spoke up. So it’s never meaningless.

We owe it to one another to speak up even if your voice shakes. There are so many others that will find their own strength and courage by seeing survivors that no longer hide in the shadows. This is how we cultivate community. But yeah, I’m glad you’re still around comrade.

If it makes you feel better, I don’t know who that is!!

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They’re going to try to intimidate and dissuade you in anyway possible.

Know your rights as a student and pass that knowledge onto your friends. It must be very overwhelming being the only one to organize, so maybe try to find likeminded people who can share the weight with you. I would try to find teachers that are in agreement with what you’re doing, along with staff and whatnot. You already have the support of students, so try to remember that. It might be time to work on some pamphlets to spread knowledge and info, I would also use it as a way to voice what’s been going on with the school admin.

I’m pretty sure they are not allowed to keep you from class.

There is no conflict to be resolved, you are exercising your freedom of speech. I think their worries are more along the lines of being responsible for the students even outside of school. From experience, the schools mostly care about the possibility of lawsuits…

edit: Also, do you have a support system? I read your previous post and you mentioned SA. From one survivor to another, I know how difficult it is, especially if you are alone. I would look for support groups near you. Im proud of you, ok?

Happy Birthday!!

Pantheon!