TotallyWorthLife (She/Her)

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  • When I had suicidal ideation, I didn’t believe in anything beyond, so I started to wonder how dying would feel from my own POV… so “it will be a dream that, from my point of reference, will never end” is the conclussion I reached from hearing about dreams, coma dreams, and “saw life in front of my eyes” stories.

    The brain putting itself into a dream that the consciousness just considers infinite… dying for the outside, but “living” forever in the inside


  • Idk… that sounds pretty harsh and cruel. While I (currently) believe there might not be a beyond, there might be a “something” where consciousness is stuck in its last moments… if someone already has an idea of it, and they are peaceful, I won’t change their mind… I’ll just be there for them, comfort them, let their brain create the image of that happy place so they can live “stuck” in hapiness during their last moments…

    It’s pretty much the best I can hope for myself, too… convince myself that there will be something beyond just so my dying brain creates such image for me to “live” in during my last moments…


  • Yeah… as much as I hate my so-called mother, I think it would be needlessly cruel to do that to her… have enough empathy/sympathy to not do it.

    Specially because I believe, while there might not be a beyond, there might be a “something” where consciousness is stuck in its last moments… and I wouldn’t want even her to be stuck with the dread of dying, or the hopelessness of being hated in the deathbed, but hopefully her brain creating the image of “heaven”… a better place where she is happy, and not the unhappy bad person she ended up being…