Endymion_Mallorn

Man, I wish. There’s a lot of money in that field.

Lost touch with most of my friends during the lockdowns, no romantic connections pending, and home sucks. Work is my escape.

I’m one of the rare people who’ll say that I wish I spent more time at work.

I’ve run into similar issues because frankly, the lockdowns of 2020-2023 also shut down my socialization almost completely. I don’t share verbally, but only in pseudonymous settings like social media. In real life, I’m either task-focused (up until last month I was going to board games once a week - I’ve since shut down), taciturn and focused inward, or drunk. I don’t share inner thoughts or opinions. I don’t care much about what others around me say. The biggest problem for me of sober socializing is mostly that I don’t have anyone I’d particularly like to be with, when I’m sober.

Now that I’m in that spiral, I don’t see a way back.