Thank you all for the replies!

Between some time having passed, having a couple of short cries at work in the bathroom, blasting my thoughts on the internet, and then reading all the nice comments, I am feeling much better! Just writing all that and sending it took a huge weight off my shoulders.

I almost feel like I was being a bit of a drama queen now lol

Life is still fun, things aren’t so bad. Give me a few weeks and I’ll have another crush