fuck it, trans posting

  • Fishbone@lemmy.world
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    8 months ago

    I’d rather follow Alt’s path than David’s. I don’t want a different body. I don’t want a body at all.

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        8 months ago

        I meant more in a general sense of being exclusively a “net” being.

        As for why to that: without going into great detail, I feel a level of detachment to my body that I think most people don’t have, and I feel like it would be a much better experience for me as a consciousness to be removed from my uncooperative body.

        Basically, I feel like basic signals from my body (hunger, fatigue, pain, etc.) Are not well received by my brain. Many times it feels like a totally unlabeled signal from a body part, and I need to actively troubleshoot what the feeling is and why.

        As an example, I’ll get a feeling in my abdomen, but I won’t know if it correlates to pain, hunger, thirst, sitting still, being sore, or any number of other things.

        The abdomen sends a messenger up to the guy in charge at the brain, and the interaction goes something like this:

        • Brain: what is it, messenger?

        • Messenger: I come with important news from the stomach!

        • B: Great, let’s hear it.

        • M: oh, dang, I think I dropped the message on the way here. It was definitely important though. Anyway, bye!

        • euphoric.cat@lemmy.blahaj.zoneOP
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          8 months ago

          I feel like we all get that in some way. I might get a food signal, but I try to eat something and its actually a fuck you signal because I won’t be able to eat, for one example

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          8 months ago

          If everyone had this subjective reality we would not have survived as a species. I have similar experience with having to manually intervene in signal processing.

          I’m sure “the average person” occasionally misreads a signal but it is not the same thing.

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            8 months ago

            If everyone had this subjective reality we would not have survived as a species.

            This is actually a very nice thing to hear from someone, thanks for that.

            The gravity of it is difficult to really explain to others, because it’s a weird concept, and an explanation usually only covers one aspect, but the reality is that the example that I gave is a truly constant occurrence and means I end up using most of my energy in a given day just troubleshooting what my own body is trying to tell me. I also think a big difference is for many others, misread signals will sort themselves out by becoming clear without much active intervention before it’s an issue, and that rarely happens in my experience.