My wife and I have life plans that make HRT unrealistic in the near future. We’re mostly concerned with fertility and my wife is still coming to terms with my identity. She understands it - she’s just grappling with the possible future changes.
In the meantime, I’m starting to do what I can to transition without HRT. Shaving. Exercise and dieting. Growing my hair out. Facial routines and hair routines. Etc.
I found FaceApp (like many other trans folks) and I’ve become a little obsessive. I take at least one photo a day and I’ve experimented with using the generated photos in private accounts for a euphoria hit. But I’m feeling like it’s making me constantly obsess with transitioning. I’m perusing trans timelines, MTF fashion, etc. on my phone a lot more than usual. Before using the app, I didn’t really have “goals”. I just wanted to get as close to feminine as possible. Now, I see this other face and I want to be her. I feel trapped in this body.
Anyways, I guess I’m just venting here. It hurts to feel this way.
Hmm, maybe. However, we have noticed their face fat shifted and became more conventionally femme, whereas ours hasn’t from what we can tell.
Our boobs have also not gotten as big as most trans femmes who post their stuff online, sadly. Not sure if it is because we messed up and took progesterone too early or what, but they aren’t that big and aren’t a good shape ioo, not round emough, slightly triangular.
see, I felt this way too, but I’ve realized that, for me, the issue is dysphoria plus seeing the changes happen gradually, so I don’t see that big change like I have in other people.
the general guidance is that we transfems max about a cup size less than our mom and/or sisters, and it tends to get spread out differently – mine are also slightly triangular, which is a totally normal breast shape for women without large boobs, even cis women.