This isn’t about grieving, just assuming the complete absence of your family and all the inheritance.
I’d pay off my medical debt and go back to university. I’m so tired. I just want to learn and stop struggling. I don’t even qualify for my own debt so I have to have it in someone else’s name, being bound to an abuser…
That’s dark man. I hope your situation gets better.
I am still very dependent on my family so I would probably not be able to continue to study and have to get a job somewhere.