I get what you mean. I am on the autism spectrum and I struggle significantly with socialising with people. You know I just find it difficult. And there’s no one that really reached out to me when I was a teenager. What broke that cycle for me was being the one who reached out and made friends with people other people never cared about. You know sometimes being the one that breaks a cycle like that can be powerful and it can even give you a stronger sense of self worth. But that’s just for me. It might be different for you because I am a very extroverted person I just really struggle with the making connections part.