I’m doing 5g of mushrooms tomorrow in silent darkness for the first time. I have no idea what to expect as I’ve never done it this way, my last dose was 4.5g and I handled it really well and had a beautiful experience out in nature. Also, planning on vaping some DMT powder in the coming weeks and going on my first major trip for the first time.
I thought it was profound at the time, but no, it wasn’t at all.
This was a meme I posted a while back and based on a true story:
Basically I thought that plants were the manifestation of God himself. All around us, providing us with live-sustaining oxygen and food.
isnt it, they represent all forms reproduction, most are very long lived or immortal (if they vegatively clone themselves indefinitely) have enormous genomes and powerful defenses(chemical, or otherwise). weedy ones are almost impossible kill.
Well yeah, the plants worship the Sun.
And fungi digest us all.
…The elements do not conspire against you. They have their own desires…
…When one spies a great peak, the natural inclination is to begin climbing…
Isn’t that what believers believe in?
Ok, so i was treated really bad in school. I know what the other kids did to me was fucked up but years of mistreatment alters your self-perception. I had never managed to shake the idea that i deserved what i got.
One time i did so many mushrooms that i just lay gibbering on the couch, staring at the ceiling. Wave after wave of dancing mandalas erupted from the bare drywall. This gave way to a million images that flashed one after another and seemed to change faster than the eye can possibly perceive; of course, i was not seeing with my eyes. It was such an incredible experience i later searched the Internet for a word to describe it (that word is phantasmagoria).
Among the images were recognizable glimpses of places i had been, toys that i had forgotten i had ever owned, scenes i had only witnessed in dreams…
The visions were composed in the way abstract paintings might be: occasionally symmetrical, always balanced, and delightful to behold. i am not embarrassed to admit that i cried, it was so beautiful. Like, i am choking up right now just remembering.
Here is my big realization: the visions did not come from the mushrooms! The mushrooms were just the key. The visions were me - my brain, displayed in gorgeous tableaux for my viewing pleasure.
I saw myself, and it was fucking beautiful.
Damn, what storytelling !!
What a beautiful experience, you’ve put in words a similar experience I had, but so much better. It triggered a very happy memory and a big smile 🥰
Took 5. Mixed with lemon juice (it hits you faster and harder, not recommended for larger doses like 3 and above) realized that everything and everyone is merely constructed by the brain in an elaborate hallucination that I have no way of knowing if anything is truly real or merely conjured by my consciousness. I havent gone back to mushrooms since as the feeling of being utterly alone is too much to bear.
What made you feel utterly alone? You’re constructed by everyone else’s brain too, ya know.
Oh god, the loneliness…
I did 5 as a first time (I was told that was an okay dose), nothing happened in 3 hours so we were like fuck it, let’s smoke some weed and go to sleep.
I took one puff from a blunt and my head went full “oh oh…” and the following 5 hours were pure insanity with loneliness. I hated it so badly that I didn’t try again for years now
Look up boltzmann brain
A spontaneously forming brain? No thank you!
Darkness made my trip much more powerful.
In the darkness, i saw sowe worms. At first i was afraid of them, but i immediately realized i could erase them if i wanted, and became unafraid. I watched them grow into an entire universe and became a small part of an enormous alien life form. I felt energy flowing in and out of me until it shifted toward out. Eventually, life moved on from me. I died and became buried under a meadow of grass, yellow flowers and small trees. I realized i was in heaven and could have whatever full experience i desired. My reward was to resume the life i am living now.
I found this really beautiful. Thanks for sharing.
I don’t think I could get out of such an experience unscathed, but I sure do like hearing the stories
LSD is the only drug I would do again, if I could. Would love to try micro dosing too.
But my trippiest experience was in a dream, not with psychedelics.
I had a dream that I turned inside out, not in a gross way, but everything that had previously been outside of me WAS me, and only what I had been before was outside of “me”. It was so transcendent.
Wow. I don’t think there is nearly as much metaphysics in my dreams. Did you transform after dreaming this ?
It did give me some perspective, I’d say. I used to set an alarm and take notes then go back to sleep, to record dreams, which is how I found the precognitive ones, I recommend that method if you think you don’t have much dream life, I suspect everyone does but we forget them as part of healthy sleep cycles. But that one dream I can still see the tree, the setting, and remember the feeling it was like unzipping my body, not scary. We really are just ephemeral happenings and part of the universe, we are not as separate as we think.
I do just like you !! I keep a notebook on the nightstand. I’ve been dreaming more and more after starting this habit
I’ve had a few quite profound experiences, one where I saw all the patterns in the universe, a peak behind the curtain of the maths that creates all natural phenomena. And another where I dissolved and became the northern lights
I also became the mushrooms once, I was in the ground amongst the soil particles existing as the mycelium threads, then decided to grow upwards as the fruiting bodies of the mushrooms above ground
I’ve had some amazing experiences of being other things in nature
Always taken by the wanderlust.
As a pack we’d walk miles, all night, usually guided towards bodies of water.
The kid in the 24 hour garage would nod as we strolled past, along the large brick wall that felt like the scales of a giant lizard.
Omg that sounds so nice, I’d love to trip with a trail nearby
Did a bunch of acid for a while, and that had a pretty profound effect on how I perceived the world.
But the most profound was a DMT trip that made me stop being an atheist.
The best analogy I’ve seen is that shrooms is like a road trip. You’re gonna be on it for a while, but you can stop and take breaks to enjoy the scenery while you travel.
Acid is like taking a flight. You’ll get there, but you basically just buckle up and wait for the ride to be over. You can wander around the cabin a little, but you’re basically just along for the ride.
…DMT is like being ratchet-strapped to the nose cone of a rocket with a loose tail fin. You’re going somewhere fast, but your destination is at the mercy of the gods.
I like this analogy, because also with DMT if you aim slightly higher with the rocket you end up billions of miles further than you expected
That makes me want to try shrooms and avoid dmt lol. And yeah it’s exactly my experience with acid. You do your pre flight checks before starting because once you’re on the plane you’re fucking committed. It also fits because every time you do it you wonder if it’s really supposed to take this long between getting on the plane and actually starting flying.
and they say alcohol is like a gnome clinging to your feet
C’mon ol’ boy, just 3 more beers and well have a grand ol’ time, we will!
Shrooms never worked for me, but that tracks for the other two. I got a bit better over time of finding new fun things in the cabin, but I generally stayed indoors and did a lot of environment prep.
I took two tabs of acid and found religion and (unrelatedly) realized I wasn’t interested in my fuckbuddy anymore and that our friendship had gotten weird since I’d started my relationship with my now wife.
The finding religion bit was basically me meditating within the pool of the divine feminine and seeing where I belonged within it.
Idk psychadelics mostly just call me on my shit and connect me to the whole of humanity and the earth.
I dunno about profound, but it was pretty chill. I took a handful of fresh Uncle Ben’s fruits and made ramen with it. Nothing crazy, but I did put on some chill tranceish type long jam tracks, got under the sheets and chilled. Within about twenty minutes I remember one closed eye visual very clearly. I was floating down the n64 Mario kart rainbow road, and the cosmic owl from adventure time was off to the side jamming with some of those double sided maracas.
I like doing tea usually, but didn’t want to go through the drying out, and in very small but not quite micro doses. I like to feel it a little. And that was one of my favorites.
Shrooms/psilocybin: Called and cussed out my parents, put all the shit my family talks about behind each others backs into a groupchat, changed my phone number, and quit drinking completely (12 pack nightly) now for 2.5 years total all within about 12h.
My #1 recommendation for anyone in a similar situation is that you are not allowed to have your phone or computer for 72h. A week if you can arrange a vacation. Watch videos on DVD / vhs if you can or read a book. Listen to music or predownload a podcast / audiobook. Go for walks. get a coloring book. Hopefully other people will add in some good analog activities. But do NOT contact the outside world at all for 72h.
It needed to be done but I could’ve done it with a LOT more grace if I’d waited.
Thought about reconnecting recently actually then I had this dream:
I was at a family reunion and mentioned the thing that my dead sibling did that left me with one of those early childhood harcoded fight or flight responses. Like it’s not existential; I’m not actually like afraid of just thinking about it but if it actually happens my body will just involuntarily freeze. Anyway in the dream my still living sibling responds by doing it to me “as a joke.”
I did not wind up reaching out. I think my body was trying to tell me something.
My first time on shrooms. Two friends and I took 4.5g (I think) each. Three other friends who did not know about the shrooms joined us shortly after and we went walking into the woods. The whole experience was surreal, at one point I had someone else’s hands, and later on I bounced an old tire off my friend’s head. He knows he deserved it for trying to fuck my sky.
I’ve done much smaller happy time does since then, but would love to trip in nature again!
How reliable is the grams to active ingredient connection? I imagine there can be a lot of variability. Tripping is on the list for this year.
Come to think of it, I think my slightly younger and smaller friend got 4.5, and the rest of us decided we needed a bit larger dose. It was back in the 1900s, so who knows for sure?
Depends where you are and where your source is coming from I assume, but in general I think it’s a fair assumption that they’ve gotten a lot stronger. There also are lots of different strains with different strengths and characteristics. In some places in Canada there are online or physical dispensaries that carry really high quality products that are way stronger than what used to be available on the black market.
Laying in bed, shifted dimensions, everything is red and black tessellations. 3 women stand around me looking down at me as I sit up from my bed (in my mind) and a person comes over and tells me to go back and I lay back down but I access this dimension again and sit back up, the women are now very amused by me doing this and the person runs over again to me and shines a bright light in my eyes and it’s very painful and breaks my experience like a dream ending.
I also had a NDE and met what I call the all thing and I was on ketamine and a bunch of other stuff (I was in the ICU) at the time so that probably also qualifies.
One time I read about the Buddha and I decided to just sit quietly under a tree for as long as it took. It took a while. Sure I’ve also tried lots of drugs but nothing really beats zazen if you manage to get to the end.
