I just get so depressed because I recall that memory of that time when my father and mother were arguing about some financial decisions and mom threatened to divorce and abandon her “useless children”.
I remember feeling so scared I just hid in my room and cried.
I feel live me existing mader her so sad.
Maybe I shouldn’t have been born.
Maybe mom would be happier without me.
I hate myself.
I bring so much misery to this world.
I wasted so much of my mom’s attention, time, money.
What’s the point?
I kinda wanna die.
But then if I do, I basically burdened society for 20 years and “contributed nothing to society” and just “left this world so cowardly”
No idea what to say about this, or what it even is. But I’m sorry to hear it. I had a very similar situation as a kid, multiple divorces, used as a pawn in their fight over money. It’s rough, but I learned from their mistakes and have a strong marriage that works.
I just get so depressed because I recall that memory of that time when my father and mother were arguing about some financial decisions and mom threatened to divorce and abandon her “useless children”.
I remember feeling so scared I just hid in my room and cried.
I feel live me existing mader her so sad.
Maybe I shouldn’t have been born.
Maybe mom would be happier without me.
I hate myself.
I bring so much misery to this world.
I wasted so much of my mom’s attention, time, money.
What’s the point?
I kinda wanna die.
But then if I do, I basically burdened society for 20 years and “contributed nothing to society” and just “left this world so cowardly”
Wtf is existence? 😭
No idea what to say about this, or what it even is. But I’m sorry to hear it. I had a very similar situation as a kid, multiple divorces, used as a pawn in their fight over money. It’s rough, but I learned from their mistakes and have a strong marriage that works.