I don’t want to be stereotypically feminine, therefore I can’t be a woman.

Now I recognize that as internalized misogyny that I’m battling on top of internalized transphobia!

I just wanted to deny it because being trans is kinda scary, even after accepting myself there is still some doubt from time to time that I’m just faking it (I know this is normal thing for trans people so I try to ignore it).

“It’s just a weird sex fantasy, not part of who I am.”

*proceeds to live in denial, despite the persistent nature of those feelings, 'til the term “nonbinary” finally reached my ears *