I pretend to have imaginary friends in my head until it seems like real enough and the day passes.
…Does it have to be a healthy coping mechanism?
Lots of video games.
Alcohol… Feel like ive been overindulding in it for a few years… but what else to do?
Listen to lots of music, the amount of sad love songs in my playlist keeps increasing lol. Work out at home with calisthenics as well, and try bulk when I find the time to do meal prep. Unfortunately most of my real life friends and the person I’m dating live on the other side of the city and I can’t afford a car, so lots of loneliness
You wanna share some of the songs? I’m down for some. If that’s okay with you.
I recognize that everyone that has abandoned me will at some point lose everyone and everything that has ever mattered to them.
And how do you use that framing?
Compassion and gratitude.
We all one day lose everyone we love and I have compassion for that suffering.
There is gratitude from having the relationships I did because the abandonment was inevitable.
